May 28

Alright...since I haven't been blogging in what seems like forever I figured since I have some time now, what the heck.

Ways to spend your Thursday night/Friday morning:
- getting restricted calls in the middle of the night
- sleeping on a rather uncomfortable bed
- sleeping in a rather cold room
- being woken up in the middle of the night...multiple times
- having pop, specifically Pepsi, brought to you
- blogging at 3 am

But why try and do all those things at different times? If you stay at the hospital with Matt overnight, this can happen to you too! But really, I'm glad to spend more time with my little brother, even if he's sleeping. I mean, the bed isn't THAT bad. I did sleep on a loft for a year and I lived to tell about it. It just pains me to know that he's in pain and he's sick and there's nothing I can do about it. He's a strong kid, no matter what anyone else may think.

Well I think he's back of to dreamland again and hopefully the tylenol helps with the pain. I never realized how much we are a like till tonight. He didn't want to take it...."Why?" you ask....because he doesn't like to swallow the pills. A boy after my own heart. I very much dislike swallowing pills. But hey...that's beside the point. End result...he took the meds and I think he's feeling better. :) Well atleast for now.

<3 LOVE!

P.S. I feel the need to express that its been quite strange using a pc again. I catch myself trying to make it work like a mac and it's just not going to happen. Haha.

Come In With The Rain by Taylor Swift ( HQ Sounds + Lyrics )

May 3

I sit here, in my room, watching Beetle Juice, thinking. Thinking about so many different things. What you ask? Exams, assignments I have to finish, my knee hurting, why does my knee hurt, boys, boys who actually talk to me, boys who I wish talked to me more. My mind is just running a million miles a minute and not on the things it should be. I haven't heard from my one special boy in what seems like forever. Its probably more like 3 days, but it still seems like forever. The hardest part is, that normally, even if he can't talk, he'll let me know. But recently, I haven't even gotten a "hey, can't talk" or a "i'm so busy, sorry". I feel like I've made him mad or he just doesn't want to talk with me and its disappointing. On the other hand, there's a different boy who will text me back and will let me know whats going on. However, I don't feel the same way towards him as I do the special one. (I've decide to leave out names.) Who knows, maybe its because I just don't know him as well. I think this summer will hopefully hold a lot of answers for me.

I've started to rant and rave....about nameless boys nonetheless...and my last ditch effort to hear from my favorite has worked. Its crazy how much my happiness can be wrapped up in one person's ability to text/fb chat with me. It shouldn't be like that. I know it, yet it doesn't change the fact.

Come in with the Rain

I could go back to every laugh
But I don't want to go there anymore and I
know all the steps up to your door
But I don't want to go there anymore
Talk to the wind, talk to the sky
Talk to the man with the reasons why
And let me know what you find

I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm too tired tonight
to call your name
Just know I'm right here hoping
You'll come in with the rain

I could stand up and sing you a song
But I don't want to have to go that far and I
I've got you down, I know you by heart
And you don't even know where I start
Talk to yourself, talk to the tears
Talk to the man who put you here
Don't wait for the sky to clear

CHORUS

I've watched you so long
screamed your name
I don't know what else
I can say

But I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm too tired tonight
for all these games
Just know I'm right here hoping
You'll come in with the rain

I could go back to every laugh
But I don't want to go there
anymore..