I sit here, in my room, watching Beetle Juice, thinking. Thinking about so many different things. What you ask? Exams, assignments I have to finish, my knee hurting, why does my knee hurt, boys, boys who actually talk to me, boys who I wish talked to me more. My mind is just running a million miles a minute and not on the things it should be. I haven't heard from my one special boy in what seems like forever. Its probably more like 3 days, but it still seems like forever. The hardest part is, that normally, even if he can't talk, he'll let me know. But recently, I haven't even gotten a "hey, can't talk" or a "i'm so busy, sorry". I feel like I've made him mad or he just doesn't want to talk with me and its disappointing. On the other hand, there's a different boy who will text me back and will let me know whats going on. However, I don't feel the same way towards him as I do the special one. (I've decide to leave out names.) Who knows, maybe its because I just don't know him as well. I think this summer will hopefully hold a lot of answers for me.
I've started to rant and rave....about nameless boys nonetheless...and my last ditch effort to hear from my favorite has worked. Its crazy how much my happiness can be wrapped up in one person's ability to text/fb chat with me. It shouldn't be like that. I know it, yet it doesn't change the fact.
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